im extremingly appealing to ppl, dnt kno why [ok i do =P] but honestly, i dnt percieve myself as anything TOO special. . .jst normal ol Jay. ppl love me, ppl hate me. they love me more than they hate me, && i see the ones who hate me simply as misunderstood admirers. yu dnt kno me at all to loathe me, so perhaps yu dnt understand sumthn ive done or am doin, or perhaps misinterpreted sumthn i said or did, dnt take it personal. get to kno me && yu'll partially understand why i do whut i do. i say 'partially' bekuz i myself am still gettn to kno me. so how cn yu understand me without me gettn why i do half the shht i do in order to explain to yu why i do it? im not perfect, but im not too imperfect either. im a God fearing woman && thts about the only thing ill evr fear, besides myself. . .its scary uncovering ones capabilites when yu nvr knew they existed. . .like my music career for instance, its sky rocketing right now. i really have power in this industry && its only gona get stronger. sumthn i cnt completely announce, but i cn promise yu tht in due time yu all will see && be amazed. ive done it all, by myself, no help. it feels as if i was jst born for this, well thts whut ppl say && im slowly startn to believe tht. my life isnt perfect. theres a new obstacle in my life evryday. if it isnt one thing, its another. catch 22 'damned if i dnt damned if i do'. i dnt let tht get to me tho. part of the reason ppl dnt kno my struggles or tht they evn exsist is bekuz i walk with my back straight, head high && a smile on my face, ALWAYS. ppl wonder why im so blunt && careless. yu only live once, so id rather yu kno how i felt about yu [good or bad] then live yur life wonderin whut i thought of yu when im no longer around. if i die first lol =P. they ask why im careless, i say give me 10 reasons on why i should care in the first place. cnt do tht? then i cnt possibly care =]. business is my primary focus, no 9-5. im incapable of work !! honestly, jobs && i dnt get along, thts why i do music. its a job, yes, but atleast its sumthn i love doin. && im damn good at it too =].  education is key...well was key lol...bn there done tht. honor roll, ap, went to ucla in th 5th grade && graduated frm the summer writing course. . .ive excelled at EVRYTHING && i mean EVRYTHING ive evr put my passion into && thts NOT an exaggeration . . .i laugh when guys approach tho. wit tht 'recycled game'. . . yu kno, same lame game they used on the bitch before they got to me. . .it was amusing but now its annoyin. im a hard one to impress, those who have talkd to me kno ;]. . .i dnt care how kute yu r, yur personality could fck tht all up && make yu ugly if its ugly. dnt care how much money yu make, kuz i prolly make more. could care less about yur swagg, i have my own. but if yu cn captivate my mind && get my intellectual train running then maybe, jst maybe we cn take it to the next step. a man tht cn hold a BOMB conversation without it leadin to talks about sex [unless its on an intellectual level] is the sexiest thing on this earth to me. brains ovr brawns !! although, primarily looks is whut we go for, but not why we stay. . .well why ill stay. . .all tht 'whut up mami', 'hey sexy', 'damn yu bad shawty' bullshht is not attractive at all. first of all, give me a challenge! easy niggas dnt go. . .kuz the next bitch cn prolly get yu jst as easily as i did. . .second, have sumthn to offer a chick, i mean come on now, yur kute ooook so? whuts 2+2 nigga?! lmao i mean real talk. ignorance is bliss. i honestly get rid of niggas like old tissue. they dnt keep me stimulated sexually, mentally, nor emotionally, so they gots ta goooo. . .i honestly think ill be single the rest of my life, im too damn picky. my type doesnt exsist. . .or isnt in california lol. anywhoot. . .until next time love muffins. muah !!